day fiftythree

07/30/2009 at 3:00 pm (Uncategorized) (, , )

the good news: i did the workout;  i wore my HRM to track progress; i’m posting on the site again; i’m tracking my food again; i’m almost halfway through power90.

the bad news: i have no energy; i’m no where near the results i wanted to have by this point

this website should be renamed the quest to fit into a bridesmaid dress.  originally, it was one of my goals, but really i just wanted to lose weight, get healthier, look better, and feel better.  but, as the time comes closer and closer to the dress fitting, it’s become more about getting into the dress than anything else.  and really, its about looking semi-good in the dress.  when we went to try them on to pick one out, i swear i couldn’t even look in the mirror because i looked like such a whale!  it was so embarrassing.  i seriously wanted to cry.  i mean, i put on a good front for my future-sister-in-law, but i was miserable.  she picked out a nice enough dress, but its sleeveless and has a v-neck and shows everything!  everyone was telling my i should just wear spanx or tights or something to suck in all the fat.  i think that was the worse part.  i didn’t want people talking about my fat!  i didn’t want people looking at me!  i dont want to hurt my brothers feelings since he asked me to be in the wedding and i know its special to him.  but, i’m not sure how i’m going to such up my fear and anxiety and walk down the aisle.  that’s the real motivation behind doing this program.  to look good in a dress.  its shallow, but there it is.

7/30/09 – 1:30pm

sweat 3/4 – 42 minutes

abs 200 – 6 minutes

515 calories burned; 40% fat

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